Dated April 16, 2031 when first draft was written. [Image of Mxiety’s desk and Flynn the corgi)

Dear Me, circa 2031.

I have done everything I can on the computer to try to avoid writing this letter to myself, while also getting myself hyped up to write this letter. Does that make sense, me 10 years from now? I’m sure it does. No one gets me like you do.

10 years from now it will be June 16, 2031 (HOLY SH) and I will be 40 years old (ALSO HOLY SH) which is silly a thing to write since you already know what date and year it is, I should just get to the all the good stuff and questions and reminders I have for you. I know you’re gonna cry too, so I hope you grabbed tissues.

Because of our endometriosis, I always worried if I would be able to have kids and I have no idea how long it might take of me to try to have one. So I guess what I want to know the most is, do we have a child? Did we adopt or are they a DNA match? I know we’re proud of them and are doing our best to be the parent we never had (while using tips from our sother [sister mother] we are lucky to have gotten).

I would say here that I hope we are happy but the thing I have learned recently is that happiness is not a destination, so I hope we have moments of happiness is more like what I want to say. Plus, it doesn’t help that we live with Depression. I tear up thinking about the life we could have had without this illness, but I am sure we did as well as we could to make sure we get to 10 years from now. And by the way, we should be SO proud of that because that is NOT easy by any stretch.

I do want to say that I am excited to see how my relationship with my sister grows too. She means the absolute world to me and to think that 10 years ago (sometime in 2011) we were barely speaking.

Speaking of not speaking to people, how are mom and dad. I don’t even know if I can open that can of worms now. Just take a moment to reflect on your relationship with them, are they healthy? Are they in our life? Why or why not? How much have we forgiven vs how much have we forgotten?

Hey, did they figure out flying cars yet? Or even are we better about sustainability at all? If not, that’s a freakin bummer. You always hope that the future is brighter, but it’s only going to get duller if we don’t do anything to protect the earth.

Have we had our first woman president? I know this is a far-off question since we are only like 3 elections off from today, but man I sure hope so.

And now for the doozies. Are we still friends with people I am currently friends with? I ask because they mean so much to me and being around them brings me so much joy, even though most of my communication with them is virtual because a) they’re around the world b) Coronavirus! I am so grateful for the people we DM daily and whom we lean of for support.

Did we achieve the goals we had in mind at this time? Today you applied for a job at Pixar on a whim. You’re also putting in so much effort into Mxiety, how does that pan out? I know how important mental health is to you, I hope your message is heard and the world is kinder to those with such illnesses finally.

Speaking of support, I know Pat is still there. Aging gracefully with you. Has his hair gone totally grey? Does he still like our butt? Listen I have my priorities and making sure the two of us are together is absolutely one of them.

I think this should be the end because I don’t want to drone on (and I know you won’t read it anyway Miss ADHD is probably skimming to start).

I hope we are proud of the person we have become. And if not, I hope we are actively working still to be our best every day.